This holz is meant for people like me to mug 24 hours n catch up w all e shit i'm laggin behind... this holz is meant for people like me to struggle to pass CT... But what on earth happened?!
i gave up even before holz started... everything seems to distract me...
i thought "relax... CT is nothing... even if you get 4Fs nothing will happen to you"... i'm dead... i think i'll really get 4Fs...
3 days of holz's gone n i still havent started mugging properly... i am dead...
spent monday n tuesday going to school, playing badminton n playing pool, watching vcds and talking cock to my friends...
wasted today sleeping and reading a book on how fast a person can get rich...
oh yeah... yesterday i went to one entrepreneurship company... learnt how to walk on glass... met this guy called jerome... he is the one featured in the straits times not long ago, with his son bending an arrow with his throat. he's a great guy... and he got me buying one book called "think and grow rich" by the late napoleon hill. then i went to ITE east for a ground checking n receeing the area for enterprise day this saturday.. shit man... the building is like heaven!!! i still cant believe wad i saw... i went there twice... n everytime, we discussed... why would government spend so much on these people... no offense... but ya gotta see the building,. n i bet ya'll complain too... it's much better than any school i've ever seen... capacity of 9000 people, super vast building... the staff there were great... they were friendly... maybe... maybe this is a way by government to show that they still care about this people... that they may succeed one day... that they still have chance... i saw the students... all bengs and lians.. great people too... they're juz different from others...
anyway... i am very sad...
console me...
my darling died... my honey passed away on monday...
i always take care of her... we've been together for only 2 months... why muz she leave me so early?!
i think i killed it...
it is a badminton racket...
i treated it so well...
i cleaned it everytime i finish using it...
i kiss it occasionally...
i hugged it to sleep
i hold it when i was down...
i love my racket...
i love her...
she was my first racket... and she cost me 80$...
i dunno whether i should get another racket or juz stop playing badminton...
it's a good hobby i think... but i getting freaked by myself... how not too? i play it almost everyday... how bout mugging?! i quit softball to have more time to mug... wad happened?! i miss softball... i miss my racket... i miss pitching... damn... i have a very sad life dont i!
tomorrow is OGLs camp i believe... i think i'll crash their camp... friday is dry run for enterprise day and saturday is the enterprise day... monday is CT and SPA... i think i'm gone... haha... not funny...
i bump into my scholarship officer from MOE yesterday... i asked her in a joking tone... "nothing will happen to me if i get 4Fs for CT rite?" she replied scaryly... i forgot wad she said... but i wasnt joking when i asked her, coz i think i'll fail... life's getting tough on me...
hmx...
i rmb this fr my old fren "when life gets tough, toughen your faith".she gave me this 2 years ago... when everything seems as bad as now... i had faith 2 years ago, that's why i am here today...
my faith is getting thinner... it's almost gone... hope i can last till 'a's