I Hope everythin goes back like how it used to be
I Hope i can forget the past
I Hope they will call me back
I Hope they will accept me back
I Hope they are doin fine there
I Hope all the screams and cries stop coming back in the night
I Hope the cuts, bruises and swells are well hidden
I Hope the smell isnt that distinct
I Hope they will stop asking me why
I Hope i noe the answer
I Hope angels can come and rescue me
I Hope it all comes to a beautiful end
I Hope i can stop hoping...
Coz my hopes dont make sense...
Hmx...
Funny thing that i picked up after living for 19 years 2 months and 22 days...
People will hide and hope that when they come out, everyone forget about their wrongdoings...
it's not funny... especially when you see their 'innocent' face... you'll feel like slapping them...
and when people says 'it was long ago anyway, just try to start all over again'... people juz wont understand unless they went thru it...
the wound is there... and it will always be there...
everyone has wounds...
everyone hurts everyone...
but when a person doesnt try to heal the wound he did...
he doesnt deserve to be forgiven...
=S what happend to me...
all this shit polluted my mind..
anyway... i wont make sense to anyone... so forget it...
yesterday was JOEL YAP's bdae :)
lalala
today is WAN HUA's bdae :)
lalala
happy bdae to two of u dears :)
thanks joel for letting us havin fun in ur place :)
haha... i'm glad i went in the end :) i got to noe vanessa (a super cute girl) and tom ( a very cute guy)... anyway, vanessa isnt related to tom in anyway... they're juz connected to joel somehow...
it was fun watching vanessa dance... and watchin tom running around... everyone loves them (at least hui min n shu xuan n rui jun)
i wonder whether i will ever meet them anymore...
anyway... vanessa is 7 years... and tom is 6 months... oh.. tom is a dog... cute dog... *blush*
nice food :) and funny thing always happen... yesterday was good friday (if u dunno)... weeks b4 that, catholics r supposed to fast/dun eat red meat at all... (i always forgot though)... and wei ming happily said 'i tot u not supposed to eat meat today?'... and there goes my meat :p lol... i think a ming feels a bit bad after dat... :p lol... it's okay bro :) thanks for e stingray n fishes :) i really enjoyed e nite... loves S21 a lot... :) oh... e funny part... yesterday catholics broke fast already :p haha... so by right i could eat meat :p haha... ouch... funny... too funny...
monday is last day of orientation 2... and last day of my break i guess... so... muz mug back... daddy n mommy called fr indo three times alr... to get it right... either i got my As... or else... sigh... yep... i'll try to improve from 4Fs to 4As... no big deal yeah?! joe can do it!!!
hmx... to all e y1s dat cant stay... it'll be another beginning for you people... treasure it... you knoe wad went right n wad went wrong in e first 3 months... dont repeat it... yep yep...
oh... have i promoted e book called 'think, and grow rich' by napoleon hill? it's a good book! it helps you to appreciate the power of the mind... i think i've been brainwashed by the book... haha... the books can pacify a ruined mind... and another one of course is 'my voice' by elim chew of 77th street... it's simply amazing... how 77 stories can change e way a person think... it opens up reader's awareness of people that are not significant for them... those in the boys homes... those drug addict... criminals... broken family background... and it's quite scary when u read an entry that sounds like you... oh yeah... anyway my voice is a compilation of 77 letters from people... mostly is what they want people to noe but they dont dare to say... yeah... read it...
common test was the past... next common test is coming... i am aiming to improve from 4Fs to 4Bs... hope it is possible... i'll use wadever napoleon taught me after he passed away... yeah... and to balance off... i asked my dear friend damien to go all the way to malaysia to get me a new honey :) i wan a new honey and joe'll be back in action everyday in e court :) tryin to smash properly and jumpin around... lol...
i'm not makin sense... i've never i think
haha
anyway...
yeah...
think i gotta go sleep
muznt be sick :)
****YYYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH****
NJC! we'll do our best
We always will
To serve, to strive and not to yield
NJC, all the way
All the way, NJC!!!!!!!!!!!