Being alone for long aint good at all...
thoughts will flow like tsunami wave...
unstoppable, damaging...
and the thoughts will be bad enough to make me think that they are in fact, a fact...
i'm tired of fighting...
cant wait for it to end...
but i dont want it to end... coz i know i'm not up to it... i wont achieve what i;ve always been wanting to achieve...
some of my friends have been pesimistic bout their lives... and sometimes their opinion irritates me... i should stop whining bout life too.. and juz live it the way it is... it was never easy anyway...
juz... tired...
and writing it down helps to ease e burden
coz there're juz too few people i can confide in...
and the number is growing to zero...
too many times news and stories scares the hell out of me
a healthy person can juz pass away like that... poof... gone
death... or rather... detachment... scares me... i'm afraid of losing...
as usual...
lost broken confused