remember me?
these past few days... i think average only sleep for like 2 hours a day?
=it's v v tiring...
but i fought on... worked hard... thinking that i'll be able to make things right...
nussu, christmas celebration, amazing race.
christmas celebration was a dread NOT! it was superb! darn bleedy nice! the band rocks the floor... oh well... but i realised sth... the whole cool celebration... how many main comm were there? how much did i contribute? i felt small... maybe some sub comm contributed more than i did... well... being stretched out is a bad thing i suppose... shall just adopt what wan hua said "at most 1 project a sem" and pull up my stupid cap...
leaving for china in 2 days time...
when the workload are in their peak...
well...
i just saw something that suddenly wiped off my working spirit
something that made me realise...
at the end of all this
i'm just a failure with a big imagination
trying to delude myself...
trying to do things to change the fact...
and ended up being a joke myself..
i should've known i didnt mean that much to you...
i should've learnt how to sense it better
and i should've the courage to step back
and disappear
well...
i guess my trip to china will just be like any other trip overseas...
bad news always awaits at the end of my trips...
come what may...
for i have no more will to carry on
boulevard of broken dream?