i've always thought it's easy to be done... and when ppl dont do it, i'll be wordering why... now it's my turn... to be not able to
practise what i preach
forgive and forget
learn from failures and use it as stepping stone
what i'm left is blurred image of my future...
again...
i've lost my vision...
world's becoming more unfriendly...
where's that safe feeling.. when i was back in NJ... when tpy was around...
after what happnd last june i thought this kinda thing is not my game...
till i gathered enough courage to pick myself up and try again...
and now...
u've proved me wrong...
u've proved my attempt futile...
confusion is what i'm left with...
i was afraid to try...
but i risked it and tried.. for you...
and now...
u r telling me that what i've tried is nonsense???
well.. u r not hypocrite to me... to me u r just
a cute unique little thingy...
so i guess i'll just move on...
and before i do anything more destructive...
i think i've seen enough...
i think i've entered deep enough
it's time i make my move
to exit
to leave...
ur life...
the life that i thought... i would share with..
you didnt noe how much it hurt just now...your silence...your sarcasm...your irritated attitude...what i wanted is to make things easy...i meant good...i met u to sort things out...but u u just show mehow much all this worth to you...and i've understood it welland that knowledge i perceivedpushed the blade further ininto that valley of black waterdark black liquidthat flows in my veinif i've disappointed youi'm really sorry...i've never meant it go this wayi didnt want it to end this way...i didnt want it to end at all...that day...the thunder stroke hard... i was shocked... i thought God sent us a message...today... the thunder stroke hard... i guess it's God again... showing me the consequence of ignorance...i'll let u go...and as u leave... please take along my feeling with you...leave me an unfeeling personcoz i dont wanna be hurt anymorei dont wanna feel the pain anymorei've had enough...enough failure to know that it's time to just stopand change my way of livingand no...i'm not blaming you..i understand how u feel well...and that's the only reason...the only reason why i'm leaving though it hurts me...coz i dont wanna inflict more damage to your soul...how i wish i can be more...greaterholier