This is scary and i'm scared
This is too much and i cant take it
This is tough and i quit
This is shit and i'm junk
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First time in my life, this is happening
(or has it been happening without me remembering?)
Vladimir Joseph Johannes Tanudjaja was once a very bright boyI received two scholarshipsI was top 50 in the whole Indonesia of few billions soulI was top 3 out of 50 scholars that were posted to Raffles InstitutionI received so many awards I cant even rmb I topped classes I was source of answers They relied on me to cheat for examsI looked forward to examsbut now
i cant bear the thought tt exam is coming
i've done so much yet i am terrified
i cant sleep
i cant eat
i cant study properly anymore
i slept from 7am ytd and woke up at 8pm
i ate n bathed and was at a ready to study position at 12 midnight
but all i did was reading one pathetic Maths paper
reading.... not even doing it... and now it's 8am...
(i rmb spending 15 mins on reading it)
i spent few hours chatting
sulking
watching youtubes
reading blogs
reading newspapers (2 newspaper... almost every single articles)
and yeah...
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Joe is scared
and at this kinda time, joe is glad tt he still hav his friends around him
i'm glad my friends are nt affected by exams the way i am
i'm glad...
they are not me
i am not cho
and i'm not gonna be one...
whatever the case is..
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Thanks to michelle seah for relieving me off one module
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the battle continues till 4th may ----- 10 more days
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the struggle continues ----- will end when i draw my last breath
i am doing so much for *u coz this might be the last time i'm doing itto show how grateful i am----------------------------------
Vladimir Joseph Johannes Tanudjaja